NZ.... Here i come come come!!!

Yes! I made a NO U-turn to myself. The moment I click "Submit" meaning to say I am 100% sure and ready to pursue my dream. I read a book recently called - Stop wasting time and start your life by Jeffrey Combs. I wanted to stay self-encouraged all the time thats why i think this book is suits me to read. The book talked about what and how is a procrastinator to be. and of course, I am no doubt one kind of the procrastinator - Big-deal chaser.
I found out in my past 20++ years of life, I've been day dreaming a lot. An ordinary girl who always think that she is somewhat special, unique than the others and always dream in her own fantasy world land. In fact, she is just a normal yet common down to earth human being who is just staying in a hectic city - Kuala Lumpur. The more i read this book, the more relaxing I feel. Hmm..I would say release instead of relax.. I've been gone thru a massive struggle just like my last previous post entry. I felt envy and jealous to my team mate on her work dedication, professionalism, passionate that she has towards her work. But try to calm myself down and not to over-rate myself with her capability.
Everyone has their own talent. I might not capable as she is but I do have other space/skills which could definitely win her more :) not trying to become the best among all but to be my own best! Still figuring how would this saying affect my philosophy of VL life in near future but I am learning to transforming myself from a big-deal chaser into a recovering productive procrastinator =)
That is why, I made a NO U-turn as mentioned earlier. I decided to start off my NZ journey on this coming December(my brithday month =p) I wish to have a different birthday celebration for myself  in this year of 2012! and.....i've booked the air ticket (AA again...oh no...) and get myself always ready whenever decision made up to my mind. No more delay and excuses!

waaa....little sheeps are waiting for my arrival!! can't wait... 


Breath-taking scenes in Nz o....

Damn!

I feel demotivated once again. Sometimes I do envy on her notability towards our job. Yes, no doubt she is the primary contact on this, and I am just the backup of hers. Feel like there would be no different even though I did not exist in this team. Then what's the point I'm still staying here? Really wish to go..especially go away from  him! I hate him vigorously!!!!! The more he says he loves me the more I hate him! Not just because of work related, personal related but is everything he did for me is a massive tragedy to me!
Mr.Loo was right, I am not a risk taker but a coward who always think of fleeing away from the cruel faith. Sigh.. it seems like working in such pressure lifestyle isn't suit me at all, I would rather go for a stray journey. See, this is how playful I am...isshhh...

to be continued...

Received a call from my "Grandpa Loo" 2 days ago. It has been such a long time we have never meet up each other. Appreciate on his concern about my recent life and of course, we chit chat alot as usual. He provided alot so call "advises" to me as usual, telling me about his point of view, his funny stories and etc...and I've told him about my NZ plan.
He was somewhat disagree with my decision to work and holiday in NZ. He claimed that I am just a problem runner who is trying to run away from the mess here. Can't deny that this is part of the reason why I am eager to leave M'sia. But I would say this has been my dream ever since I was in high school, ever since I have my 1st dream in my life! How could he say that this isn't good and useless for me?? I was a little bit shock by what he said. But in the end, I respect his points.
Cousin who was just get back from NZ few days ago has seemed different entirely. I can't really recognized it was him who waving his hand towards me during our family dinner last night. Seek some living info in NZ from him and I can feel the difficulties as well as the challenges to stay there for a couple of months time. By myself alone! Totally independent from family! Woah...! Though my mind is telling me not to take the risk, I might even get defeated by the self-independance simply, but yet I would not turn down my dream! There is NO WAY to let me go off my dream easily!
Since NZ is still 1 yr long to go for me from now, I think I would better concentrate to my incoming March SL's trip la! Everything hasn't finalize yet...aiks...headache really. Accommodation, transportation arrangement, places to visit and etc...
TBC...
- by V.L -

2011 X'mas in East M'sia - Borneo land

I have selected to spend my X'mas in Sabah this year, together with my birthday ^^
Day 1 -
Woke up early in the morning and caught up with Ee Wei in KL Central to head to LCCT. While on the way to LCCT, I just realized something I have forgotten to bring along! Oh Gosh...not this time again...! I did not bring my undergarments and I thought everything was packed in my luggage bag. This ain't happens once in my lifetime, but few times before go off for vacation. My Godness...OK, forget about the embarrassment, just go as it is. No point to turn back home as our flight set on 9.30am. So met up with my gangs in LCCT, everything was checked and confirmed. There we go and start our X'mas journey to the East! First thing to do once we arrived at Terminal 2, KKIA - booked Taxi to go to Terminal 1 just to collect our rented car. Stupid me din't make a clear research about the car pick up point so we have to spend another 60 bucks to travel to Terminal 1 and collect the car. *.* But good thing was, our original rent car which was suppose to be a Toyota Innova 2.0 and the company offered a free upgrade to us with a Hyundai Starex 2.6cc, its totally FREE!! How lucky we were for this coming X'mas! LOL..
Since I was not the full time photographer along the trip, hence I would only able to upload few pics from my iphone.


Day 2 - woke up early and was aiming to have a glance at the sun rise scenic view at the Tip of Borneo, Tanjung Mengayau Kudat. But it was just another disappointment for us..sigh..


I was standing at the real Tip of Borneo.! The views were just breathtaking..


This is just another side of the Tip of Borneo..How I wish to stay there longer to ease my messy mind~


A view right in front of our room. Never regret to set my foots into this piece of land ^^ Lovely~

Stay tuned..
- by V.L -

就这样。。。

就这样，过了我还蛮期待奇迹会出现的二十五岁生日。 My 25th yr old birthday has almost past without honor my birthday wish for this year. Kinda sad and disappointed to be honest, but that's where we will grow and stay strong I suppose! I must confess to myself that I am not a weaker in relationship, always not to be...Hence there is no way to earn my tears from it. I hate crying especially on my birthday! But I did after few minutes when the clock strikes to 12am sharp. My phone rang, but it wasn't from the person I always hope for. It was someone else who I do not wish to cherish about him. Few words for me before I hang up. Din't really show how passionate I was to talk to him. I'm sure he can sense on it too. By the time I hung my phone and my tears dropped uncontrollably, my last hope has been arisen once again when the phone rang for the second time. So wish to see his name show up on my iphone wall, but fact reveals the truth. My buddy who called up and greet me. Thanks to him. But my heart was seriously broken.
We both went for few senseless topics before I off for my dreams. He pulled me from tears to laughter though I still feeling upset.


Though there isn't any massive celebration from friends and family, yet this is the ending I always hope for. Can't blame anyone..Tell you a funny joke, the pants I'm wearing today (one of my favorite) has tighten me like hell..My thighs are gaining weigh I think :(.. I can't even squad, bend my legs simply just because of its tightness. Huhu....Mau lawa tak mau jiwa. Maybe this is what people always mean for. Lol...
Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ME, Kikilulu~~
- by V.L -

又犯老毛病的我

我卢韦琪的人生有过大起大落。大学时的疯狂，大学时的风光，大学时的低落，大学时的快乐。人生有过这样的历练，焉能再怨天尤人？四年的大学生涯是我人生最灿烂的人生高峰点。
回想曾经的点点滴滴，我是幸福且幸运的。


友谊长存

现时听着萧煌奇的“末班车”，手指不停地在打着电脑键盘，头脑不停的回想着过去点滴，犹如一场美好的一廉悠梦。感叹着活到了二十五个年头，我竟开始对人生蒙起了消极与悲观概念。这到底是为了什么？人活在这世上到底是为了什么？
为什么我总是那么多的“为什么”而不是努力寻找答案，不再自问而不能自答呢？刚过的周末是公司的周年晚宴，还蛮隆重且庞大的一个宴会。每个人都盛装打扮出席。当然，我也不例外。穿着我喜欢的青衣晚装与大学同学一起赴会去！很努力的避免与认识的同时碰面，所以整个晚上只待在一旁静静地欣赏节目。不料还是被我最不想碰面的BT给遇个正着，结果还是拍了照留念。就这样结束了当晚的一切。


晚宴当天。。

来到礼拜天，祥为我提早庆生。我们到了Mont Kiara的一间韩式餐厅 - Little Korea。那里的情调还不赖，只是价钱偏贵与食物质数并不很合我胃口。不过朋友那么有心特地为自己庆生我已感到很满足了哦。吃完过后我们便到了Tropicana City Mall走走，顺便看了一部电影 - Alvin and The Chipmunks。非常搞笑，不时就让我破肚大笑。


圣诞节快到了哦！

就这样，不知不觉已到了晚上，结束了一整天的节目。是时候收拾心情准备来临的蓝色星期一了。
- by V.L -

SAD FRIDAY

Its sad when get to know that my effort wasted just like this. I realize that it would failed no matter how well I prepare or not prepare for an interview. So whats the point I want to leave? How well I pretend to be strong in front of others and how well/long I can sustain from all these non-stop failures happened on me still? Why I would always paint a nice pic to myself on prior, why I always stay optimistic towards my poor capability? In fact no one will bother it at all! Or is the day I get hired was mainly because of his personal own perception????? I am doubt about my ability right now. Feel uneasy every time get rejected with/without reasons! I am sad.........really SAD..
- by V.L -