Monday blue

OMG... Its Monday. Woke up early in the morning to send my sis for class. So I arrived earlier to office than usual. Fall asleep not even sit longer than 1 hour at my desk. My eyes keep closing the eyelids and this is killing me! I wish there is a bed nxt for me to zzZzzzzZzz now....
Last weekends, Sat - Went for Ballet class as usual. Bought my Ballet attire at last! though it looks normal and common, but this is my big achievement! Happy ^^
And yesterday, Sunday. I went to mum's saloon for the eyebrow tattoo appointment. I have made a huge mistake in my entire life - eyebrow tattoo. It was hurtful when the lady uses that stitches to stitch uncontrollably on your poor eyebrow. She told me I am allergy towards the narcotic she applied onto my eyebrow. And that causes my 2 side eyebrows looked bulky..and an obvious difference skin color on my skin. :( But since this is my early birthday gift from mum, so I am happy with it though it does look weirdo =p  I love you, Mum... BIG muackssss.....
After the painful session, I went for a movie (You are my apple of .....**can't really remember the full name of the movie) with xx. After the massive +ve comments posted on web and highly recommended by frens, so I decided to have a glance on it. Sadly I am not a girl who graduated from co-ex high school and therefore I do not actually get touched by its story. But  what I can obtain through out this whole movie was a lesson to tell things would not always an U-turn for you to go for, that's why we must deeply appreciate what we are having around us all the time. Just like I have missed out the person I love the most in my entire life due to my stupidity before, so I have to make sure I would not repeat the same anymore.
We went for dinner right after the movie. We walked and talked not that often, there was a silent whenever I couldn't find any topic to chat with. I feel awkward, but the feelings towards him have never changed. Though the feelings are remained, but I am no longer assure the person who stand right in front of me is the right man i should go for by risking my whole future life. I am a coward, I could think of many -ve consequences which might/going to happen if we are getting back together. So so so many obstacles we have to go through and I know for sure I won't be able to cope it easily. Sometimes I do feel he doesn't really bother about our 'relationship' that much till I have discouraged by his motionless deed towards me.
I always remind myself, his motionless is because he is tired of me and our 'relationship'. Ain't play this game with me no more, which is true! I can't even promise or guarantee I can bring him 100% happiness. For what I am dying to be with him still? I am not qualified. Please wake up Vxx Lxx!!!
- by V.L -