rainy nite

10.55pm, home. today was a normal day to me while working. keep scratching my head on server build thingy. luckily got senior willing to teach and KT. awhile later,manager came to my place and ask for the progress. i feel blessed for all ppl around me. they are caring and nvr mean on passing those knowledges to me. keep giving me the chance to explore the things which i nvr encountered b4. some of my colleagues are cute too..they are nice, and frenly. but some of them, i better keep a certain distance from them. anyhow, i njoy my working life rite now and looking further to myself. how far i can go beyond and how strengthful i am when handling those troublesome tasks. gd nitez every1..time for me to sleep again. goin to meet dear this weekend..hope i will njoy our dating and jus b wif him peacefully.~ nitez..

learned sumthin

i've learned sumthin from sum1 today.. do not ever express ur dissatisfaction in ur blog entry especially when u have no idea who is reading ur blog rite now.. scary..but, i suppose blogging is the only way can be the real us? vent out everythin tat you not contented and release your anger? sigh....wat can i say more? S.T.U.P.I.D lo.... feel so down now..can't concentrate on anythin..workload getting more and more and feel pressure. presure not from my boss but from my dear colleague. the more conflict she make wif my team the more suffer i am.. which side should i stand for? godness..btw, tonite nit to pray 7 jie. grandma insist me to pray >.<'' duno y.. so i off la..tata..

SHort TerM MemOrY

OMG!! lately i've been bothered by those so called "password"!! my godness...know y? my work, lots of passwordSSS got to be bear in mind. frankly, none of them are set in my mind rite now. hterefore, i've jot them down in a notepad which i am not suppose to do so. bt for my own sake, its just to play safe for myself. but AGAIN, i've forgotten my maybank account and its LOCKED! due to the security purposes..WTH...~!~@~ i have to go to the bank to unlock my account entirely.. tot my day wasn't black after all, but.......jus found out my VM machine is once again locked due to my poor lousy memory..i lost everything in it.. i was like... DAMN!! what happened to me lately? getting older or over stress of my work? it can't be..i'm stil young wei...im only 22(goin to be 23). i am wondering should i get some treatment,therapy in order to boost up my memorizing power? hmm...or, or i miss my Uni life so much keep on recalling bek those moments i spent wif frens? bf? the ppl i hate? i have no life style ever since i started my 1st day work in hp. my daily routine, 8.30am sitting in front of pc, on msn, browse fb for few moment, and start to work. 5.50pm, not yet finish my work coz of my freshness to the office. have to catch up 1 by 1 and digest it against my will. meeting? three times a week, 3 hours each to get me involved. and yet, my the only rest day of the week, --> NONE. 7 days work in d office, facing the same pc, same faces, and same toilet. >.<' sat & sun aren't my favourite day anymore. they are my unofficial work day instead.. my boss:" good motion,keep it up!." me:" =.=' "
i really boring towards my lifestyle rite now, nothin more i can do but keep working and earn money. i wish to bring my mum for traveling, i wish to own a pda phone, i wish i can wear variety of pretty clothes to work, i wish i can build up a good relationship wif all colleagues, i wish no company politics in my office, i wish our country is virus free( say NO to H1N1), i wish my life can spark up and not that dull at all. i wish to go US too......i wish to go KLIA to board on a plane, go everywhere i want to..i am dreaming obviously~~by the way, stil trying hard to get into my VM machine, attempt failure..does any1 know the solution without reformat everythin over again? i am so sick of reformating pc la wei....ish..

njoying my woring hour in office by blogging here

03.44pm hp tower,damansara
i am physiacally sitting in front of my pc typing, pretending that i am busy with my office work. but, i am mentally concentrating to my blog here. haha...what a fuuny worker i am in hp here. today went to office as usual, bumped into my colleagues while waitingfor the bus to come and fetch us. i was not daring to go infront
of them to chat. this is becasue she looked too fierce to me everytime i was trying to approach to her. when reach to the office,my id card could not scan through, therefore my senior asked me to go to security unit to ask for assistance. again here's the same probto me, he told me that the id card holder's name was not belong to me.i was like, huh? u serious? again wat should i obtain doesn't belong to me once again? it make me recall bek my dear tm technician has installed the worng regis name of the telephone at my home last time.so SWEAT!~but thanks to god, it settled within few mins and i get up to the office and start my work today. instead of saying my work, i would say start to day dreaming once again in office. so far there is no work for me to get involved, so i just keep sitting in front of the pc, browsing web and continue pretending to be a hardworking hp employee. i was having meeting at 10am this morning, mainly discuss about the definition of local domain, global group, universal group.and of coz, our trainer was LOO(same surname wif me. abit of warm feeling whenever i see him. might come from the same family.)hahaha..
okok, stop crapping. let me refresh, local domain - local user account within the local group. global group - e.g erricson account. its member servers are allowed to retrieve data from each other but must within its own account.universal group - combination of variety of global groups for differ accounts. there is some restrictions for the universal group by the way, it can only applied to native mode(windows 2003) while for the universal group which set up in windows 2000&03 can only applied to mixed mode. not sure is my explanation correct or not, but at least i sould still recall a little bit of wat i learned for today. haha...not to forget, i nit to re-clarify for my previous blog entry. in there i was saying hp is a place where we can relax and njoy ur life. but it isn't the way i was meant to! "if u manage to survive in hp working environment, you wil survive in every work field in
the future! " my senior advise to me again. =.= is that true btw? i need to work durin weekend ar, what do u think thn? 2 weeks continously..not sure the week after nxt week i will free from OT or not. sigh...

depressed ar...

i can't graduate on time la this time.. i couldn't find my name in list of graduates. its really depressing.. what i'm gonna do? go play? go for a wild outing? i hate myself so much.! wat the hell i've done to myself? why i push myself into this way? i jus wana b grad in the yr of 09. why why why? i scream:" ar....~~~!!!!" useless.. =.= 2 days of work in HP was ordinary. yet the colleagues i met so far they are frenly though. anythin make me feel uncomfortable in office? i bet NO. it is so relaxing working there. the environment such a good place for us to steal bone(malay term)..if you wish to spend ur life peacefully without any challenges, i would suggest u to step ur foot in here(only apply to my department la har) not to forget, the workers there are mostly the youngsters. so energetic when seeing them and work wif them together. but, here is the "but". they not as frenly as u expected though. jus like a wind pass by whenever u cross over them. haha...duno wat i wan to say actually. jus wan to highlight here, those who working in HP they are reallt expert in wat they are doin!(except me) =.='' coz i'm the newbie there? its jus a matter of time for me to find out my usability of contribution to this company for the nxt few months. gd luck to me and to HP as well. -sad me- :'(

--L.O.V.E--

it really teasing my heart. finally i know the real mean of LOVE..and need to say goodbye to it..here is my final word to u. i love you from the bottom of my heart, take care..bye

screwed my 2nd paper

the thing which i dun wan to happen the most was actually happened to me today durin exam! i was having stomach pain early in the exam, told myself to tahan,tahan and tahan til the end of the exam. but then in the middle of the way, i rushed out from the exam scene for the toilet. swt...inside the toilet, there was so many unexpected surprises which i nvr expected b4. my dear coursemates were actually 'studying' their notes which is being hidden in the toilet b4 exam. i was really =.='.. but no time for me to care such surprises. nit to do my business 1st..after went bek to exam, i duno how to do the questions!! those questions were too broad. i dun even know wat should i write for them. sigh..wasted my time in toilet and end up screwed up my paper. can't graduate on time liao la this time, jus bcoz of the milo and roti i ate b4 went to the exam!!!!!! i hate both of them so much.. i swear not to drink and eat them anymore!! i'm so so sad....