my big day!

yesterday was my 22nd big day! i had had a bad sleep d day b4 the come of my birthday. why? hp keep 'yelling' at me non-stop. fren's birthday wishes has nvr stop til now. i'm so pleased to receive any single wish frm each of them. means they blessing me with their whole heart which makes me get touched al the time. although no cake celeb this yr, no special moment this yr, yet i feel so peace to pass my 22nd yr old birthday this yr. of coz, i feel glad to b wif dear during my birthday time. but the peacefulness not cum frm dear but frm the bottom of my heart. jus like the normal day i gone thru lo. nothin much special..i went to uncle's house to celeb early christmas last nite, n we all get the christmas present frm uncle n aunty. thanks to them. i received a formal shirt frm them which i not really fond of. coz of its color is so dull..not suit my type. haha..but anyway, really big thanks to them. may i hav a grand yet happy christmas this yr.. happy happy christmas to all~~~!! :)

my bad day

today was so irritating+hectic. woke up at 8sumthin thn went to campus early jus to print out my fyp. b4 tat i tot paper not provided for the printing therefore i bought a 10 bucks of the indah kiat paper n 4 bucks of cds. thn forgot to bring the printing approval form so hav to get bek ixora again. when get into the lab, the technician told me paper is provided up to 300 pages!~ wth!! @!##@ printed out at last n thn went for binding, bought the blue cover of the fyp in fist office. i tot everythin was heading fine n smooth. when cum to 2.30pm, went to meet my 'dear' supervisor. he was on the call so hav to wait outside of his room.almost 20mins waiting thn only managed to get into his room. end up scolded me by asking me y din i attach the meeting log as appendix. i tot every meeting log has to b original tats y dun dare to attach into the report 1st ma. manatau kena marah pulak@#@!#..swt..so i rushed to photostat the meeting logs again thn only submit to him. tot of nothin more once i handed it to him, but thn, more probs has encoutered to me after waz i rushed n busy for..haiz...wats more? minor mistakes in the report lo. i'm so so damn careless til din even notice where the mistakes are. but y? i would only found out only when i ady submitted? is this the real me? i hate it so much!hopefully things would b fine after tomolo..no more worries for the report can i? ans is no, this is jus the begining of my bad luck.. :( my godness..

JinGlE bELl~~

yeah!!..its christmas time..hohoho...the occassion i like the most nothin more than this coming christmas. it gives me a peaceful sign and feel like to recall waz i've done thru out the whole yr of 2008. hmm...seems a lot i've gone thru..sweet, bitter, sour..each of them. n i found out how poor my eng level is in the end. my fyp report is jus screwed up by me, my tests, my assigns, everythin i done was definately unsatisfied. even i ady try my best. wait, did i really try the best of me? i dun think so..my mind is stil heading for fun. nxt sem would be my system coding implementation le, yet i stil start from nothin til now. i've should start it earlier,ever since my training start. but no point to tell this now. christmas is coming, my birthday is coming as well. if sum1 ask me waz would i wish for my birthaday,to b honest, i jus nit a peazceful yet lively birthday. i mean nit not to celeb for on purpose. jus let it flow naturally. can i? i do hope for some surprise from certain ppl of coz, but seems like i ady used of dissapointed on d surprise frm sum1, so i think i better not to think of it. i jus hope ta b wif my family during my birthday..and hav a happy christmas ever..!hahaha...after christmas is CNY lo, time pass realy fast. i din even notice CNY is falling on nxt month til som1 reminded me. kaka..new yr new hope, i hope i can graduate smoothly get an average result for fyp, nothin more than that..shouldn't b so greedy rite? lastly, remember to live more lively than i am..c ya..

boredomness..

29/11/08,1.07pm,saturday,library. today is again another boring day of mine. woke up at 10sumthin (jus bcoz my roomate has woke up,so i hav to either) reluctantly. settled my things, n then prepare to go lib. i looked gloomy once i get down there n was trying to look for food. there is none of the stall open for me! damn! went to ixora food court, super quiet and went down there of the food court. reverse bek n planned to hav my meal in ps. another bad luck to me again,ps was not open either! n thn i came to my last choice,plan to go to the grossary shop to get sum bread or junks in order to fill up my stomarch. maantau closed again. =.=' wasted my energy to walked pass the stores which i tot i can get food from there. instead, none of them were open. finally i went to ep food court to hav my lunch. i had it alone wif myself. feel so pity n lonely. but wat to do? bf not around, n dun hav the intention to ask fren out wif me anymore(especially guy). this is the only treatment or punishment to myself i guess. and i hav to bear wif it no matter how. this is wat i promised to myself earlier..din i? yeah, i did. last nite was another critical arguement between me n him. he once again revive my fault to him those days and i can't control my emo well last nite. in the end i wanted to break up straight. i really can't accept my bf accuse me of not doin thing to try to repair our relationship.. waz i did for these few weeks were jus wasted,n did for nothin!! i hate it,n get pissed off! even til now i stil can't let go of wat he said last nite. but all i can do now is just try more harder to let him know my heart towards him. although i feel energyless to continue. btw, going for hiking wif ailun at 6pm later. this is the 1st time i go hike wif her. hopefully it will b a nice n fun memory to me.. :) nothin can cheer me up for sure, n the only thing can relax my mind awhile is sport.i wan to sweat til i can forget the sads forever...beat it up!!!

craps again..

28/11/08,friday,5.00pm. today woke up at 10sumthin..turned on my pc n watched movie as the start of the day. 12pm meet wif kenny as promised last nite to hav meal together. we went to a vege stall and he told me that today is the 1st day of the month in buddhism calendar. waz a coincidence..after meal we head bek to campus CITS lab. he helped me to look thru my fyp report and told me where should i improve for it. i found out i had missed out lot of things and material in my report. 3 more week to go for me to submit the report. am i manage to complete it b4 the due date? mr.kau has defeat my confidence of doing it actually. "this is quite dissapointed actually of ur work" this sentence come across my mind everytime i start doin it. i made sum stupid mistake which i shouldn't hav in my report. i was so shame tat time. i dun even check for the typo clearly when i submit and he point it out in front of me n other lecturer. sigh..
after the report checking frm him, we went to mori cafe to on9. after tat head bek to lib n cont wif my study. jus hope that this sem i can survive frm those killing assigns and exams. and graduate on time. get a good prospect job so tat make my parents to b proud of their doughter all the time. this is my one n only wish to make it cum true to my life. i request for nothin,but hope my family is doin well all the time n live happily. i love my family

爱一人

如果你不爱一个人,

请放手.

好让别人有机会爱她.

如果你爱的人放弃了你,

请放开自己,

好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,

有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .

但别让自己为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,

有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有,

但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.

女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.



如果真诚是一种伤害,

我选择谎言;

如果谎言一种伤害,

我选择沉默;

如果沉默是一种伤害,

我选择离开.



如果失去是苦，

你怕不怕付出 ,

如果迷乱是苦，

你会不会选择结束,

如果追求是苦，

你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,

如果分离是苦，

你要向谁倾诉,

好多事情都是后来才看清楚,

好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

my last confess

weak to concentrate. easily get distracted by those unuseful thinking in my mind. can't even get rid of them. did i choose the right path for my life by telling u the truth? v can hardly bek to those time after waz u should know frm me. the ugly me has shown up my ugliest side to you in the end. ur angel is no longer touches ur heart,no longer resides deep into ur heart i bet. but i'm not regret, no regret to tell u the truth. becoz u hav the right to know all this n i really can't stand of the lies tat stand between us. i feel breathless..tears drop uncontrollably whenever i think of this. an ugly gal has destroyed 2 gentlement 's peaceful life. i'm suffering now. n so do u i'm sure. therefore i think its time to put a fullstop for our relationship le. i know v both might stil havin the feeling of can't let go of it. yet v hav to.. v r actually forcing ourselve to love each other even more n forget the real mean of coupling le. i tot pak tor should b a happy thing n i jus wish to hav a simple yet lovely relationship wif my bf. but seems my taught nvr cum true to me. dear, i love u..but no matter how deep our love is, there won't b a happy ending to us if v stil insist to ask for love frm each other especially for the situation now..i can feel dear bu shuang on everyhtin of me but yet dear stil tahan of it.. i can't bear of turning dear til like this.i wan dear to stay happy all the time..but mayb this will only happen if i quit frm this harsh situation of us. i won't call or msg dear not even disturb dear anymore..i swear..jus to makesure u r free frm disaster(me) forever.. i really mean it..

lonely nite by clicking the keypad all nite long. hmm....

9.30pm,malacca. today was my training presentation in mlk. therefore depart my journey to mlk since 8sumthin early in the morning. allen, kenny n me were goin there together. they both talked a lot regarding my ex-company function which i stil hav to scratching my head in order to join into their topic. but nvm, couldn't be bnothered thou. y? coz i ady leave that company lo. hohoho..but a bit miss those day when i was working there. but surprisingly i get to know that 1 of the intern in xeersoft has quit frm working there. reason? hahahah..pre-suspection was due to my 'beloved' mr.K!! who i hate him so damn much. i think that poor intern can't really bear wif his rude behavior to him. thats y wan to cabut lo. i really get impressed of my own once i heard this frm kenny them. this is bcoz i was strengthful enuf to bear of him 4 MONTHS all together! unbelievable! its a miracle! i manage to survive under his evil supervision. wao..impressive!hahaha..even a guy oso canot tahan his behavior,waz abt the 4 months i hav been thru? hmm...
back to now, i'm blogging wuliao-ly coz dear dumped me by sleeping on his bed. :( listening some romance song as well, feel like a person who get loved by sum1 is a grateful thing(i mean myself i guess) hehe,.. today presentation was not that ideal. but it passed at least. sum1 criticize on it too.. hand gesture prob la, how to easy ur anxious la,bla bla bla.. >.<' really nit to improve lo. after tat went to c fyp lecturer, went to ixora to book my unit for up cumin trimester,finally went for a meal in mori cafe. after finished our lunch, we head to lib for study while dear concentrate to his sleeping(been sleeping all the while,less study), thn i start doin my FYP lo.
hmm...nothin to blog anymore,jus hope tat my dear get up fast thn go for our dinner+supper lo. a bit hungry le.. :(
p/s: drank a little bit of johnie walker. feeling blur blur now. its taste not tat nice at all. yuck..so smelly. stupid de me tot dear won't find out but his nose was so sensible. hahaha...i'm sry for wasting ur wine dear..blek..

POST3

my previous blog has offended my beloved as i din know it will hurt him badly. therefore i'm here to declare tat i did not make it tat way purposely. hope my dear will understand. every1 is looking for the fogiveness frm the 1 they wan to,but it is hard for the 1 to accept their apologize n pretend to be ok in front of the wrong doer in a plit of sec. so am i...but i guess my dear will forgive me tenderly de rite? hehe..last weekend i went to china press to get the mooncake free. manatau interviewed by the reporter unexpectedly. they stopped me by calling me so i tot i might b left out sumthin when i receive the mooncake frm them but end up they wan to get a pic frm me pulak.. at that nite,my neighbour was so spiritful to cum to my house jus to show my pic to all..really swt....besides,i went for a dinner at the backstreet jus located at my room down there. there is not an ideal place to hav food for sure,sumore drizzling. but its free to all, who dun wan it rite? but the most embarrasing was my greediness has drawed me into an extremely awkward situation. aunt asked me to get sum glasses of water to them by using the plastic plate which v usually use to eat de. i tot i could make it (3 glasses in a plate).. *bling blang!* the sound of the breaking a glass on the floor came into my ear..nonono,came into all comer's ear..every1 staring at me for a sec, i was so so so damn embarrased n really wan to hide into a hole if there any. aiks...on sunday, i went to klang wif cousin,driving mum's car (without air-cond) v both wer e like inside the owen, my skin and face has turned red all the way long to klang. meet pei san at the gov hospital there. get shocked n impressed when i see her driving a huge van to cum. n really thanks to her for passing me bek my key as she is not so conveniance to cum out to meet me. really feel paiseh to trouble her always. at the end me n my cousin has went for jj in bkt tinggi,which is the biggest jj outlet in malaysia. both of us 1st time went to klang n looking for the road by guessing yet v stil manage to reach our destination. it was great and awesome..hehe..jus tat the condition in car was unbearable.. =.='
*sat nite i went out at 11sumthin to pick sook heng up frm puduraya bus station. she jus get bek frm singapore tat nite and we went to stephen corner for supper. we chat a lot, but the feeling of being wif her was slightly differ as the time v hanged out durin school time. a bit strange..i used to think that she is the real fren who i looking for all this while,but seems like sumthin has changed my mind to think so...y huh?hmm...anyhow, we r stil best fren..me and mr.chong are stil couple though..haha.. :P

day 2 in farmlands

today as usual went off for work. mum cooked me noodle as breakfast (so so only). durin woking time, i've been doin tasks,works, assignment, fixing bugs,...tonnes of them are waiting for me yet i stil wan to blog here. hehe..senior feel sad today coz he jus get to know his last sem result was terrifying. but i duno how to comfort him as i keep busy wif my works. today another new task assigned by Mr. K. it was so scary coz he nvr treat me frenly so far not til today. but surprisingly, he came over my place to teach me and correct my mistake without showing his trademark (black face) to me.hehe.. been busy doing the task,keep scracthing my head to finish it. after meeting today i went for dinner wif classmates at 118. we had had an njoyable chit chat n discussion on our cumin phuket trip. haha..but the most unexpected thing was i can bcum the driver on my way home. it was disbelieve tat i can drive a waja for the 1st time.! haha...the feeling not bad,jus a bit nervous.hehe..anyhow, mum n grandma's birthday is cumin soon.waz should i get them as present? really no idea,but i really hope tat i can giv them special yet memorable birthday this time since i'm home for this 4 months with them. mummy,happy 40++birthday! and to grandma, happy 80++ birthday lo!! wishing u both 长命百岁！！muackss.. no more cramp durin sleep ya. hehe..

my 1st time..

hellohooo~~my 1st time blog entry pop out thru internet finally. hmm...1s tof all, to those who is viewing my blog,thanks for dropping by jus to hav a glimpse of it..nothin much to say for the 1st time,mayb wait after i get used to this blogspot thn only reveal my secretssss...hehe..hav a nice day ahead to myself..! n of coz,to all of my dear frens... :)