F.R.I.E.N.D

sumthin wrong in me..i cried when sing k with frens today. we sang a song call 'FRIEND' which sang by Zhou Hua Jian. at that moment i feel like fren is so important to me to care for and i can't bear of losing them. i duno why...there is so many words i wan to tell pei san but so bad we are not the only 2 hanging out. one of my fren has jus broke up with his gf,and therefore the purpose of having this gathering is mostly to comfort him and cheer him up. yet we managed to accomplish our mission..yeah! hope he is doing alrite soon. its 12.44am rite now..time to sleep and bid gdbye to internet world. gd nitez..

trouble is a fren

i had a big transformation lately. from an ordinary gal into extraordinary gal. why do i say so? i duno actually. but i can feel it. even my mum told me the same thing. she said i've changed. changed? in term of? -- my hot temper. i feel so tired, tired of my work while i jus worked for 4 months ++. regret to step my foot into IT field. but once i'm in, there is always no U-turn. fren gathering always dismiss without a good reason in the end. feeling disappointed on them. you know wat?? i am really TIRED..!!

rainy nite

10.55pm, home. today was a normal day to me while working. keep scratching my head on server build thingy. luckily got senior willing to teach and KT. awhile later,manager came to my place and ask for the progress. i feel blessed for all ppl around me. they are caring and nvr mean on passing those knowledges to me. keep giving me the chance to explore the things which i nvr encountered b4. some of my colleagues are cute too..they are nice, and frenly. but some of them, i better keep a certain distance from them. anyhow, i njoy my working life rite now and looking further to myself. how far i can go beyond and how strengthful i am when handling those troublesome tasks. gd nitez every1..time for me to sleep again. goin to meet dear this weekend..hope i will njoy our dating and jus b wif him peacefully.~ nitez..

learned sumthin

i've learned sumthin from sum1 today.. do not ever express ur dissatisfaction in ur blog entry especially when u have no idea who is reading ur blog rite now.. scary..but, i suppose blogging is the only way can be the real us? vent out everythin tat you not contented and release your anger? sigh....wat can i say more? S.T.U.P.I.D lo.... feel so down now..can't concentrate on anythin..workload getting more and more and feel pressure. presure not from my boss but from my dear colleague. the more conflict she make wif my team the more suffer i am.. which side should i stand for? godness..btw, tonite nit to pray 7 jie. grandma insist me to pray >.<'' duno y.. so i off la..tata..

SHort TerM MemOrY

OMG!! lately i've been bothered by those so called "password"!! my godness...know y? my work, lots of passwordSSS got to be bear in mind. frankly, none of them are set in my mind rite now. hterefore, i've jot them down in a notepad which i am not suppose to do so. bt for my own sake, its just to play safe for myself. but AGAIN, i've forgotten my maybank account and its LOCKED! due to the security purposes..WTH...~!~@~ i have to go to the bank to unlock my account entirely.. tot my day wasn't black after all, but.......jus found out my VM machine is once again locked due to my poor lousy memory..i lost everything in it.. i was like... DAMN!! what happened to me lately? getting older or over stress of my work? it can't be..i'm stil young wei...im only 22(goin to be 23). i am wondering should i get some treatment,therapy in order to boost up my memorizing power? hmm...or, or i miss my Uni life so much keep on recalling bek those moments i spent wif frens? bf? the ppl i hate? i have no life style ever since i started my 1st day work in hp. my daily routine, 8.30am sitting in front of pc, on msn, browse fb for few moment, and start to work. 5.50pm, not yet finish my work coz of my freshness to the office. have to catch up 1 by 1 and digest it against my will. meeting? three times a week, 3 hours each to get me involved. and yet, my the only rest day of the week, --> NONE. 7 days work in d office, facing the same pc, same faces, and same toilet. >.<' sat & sun aren't my favourite day anymore. they are my unofficial work day instead.. my boss:" good motion,keep it up!." me:" =.=' "
i really boring towards my lifestyle rite now, nothin more i can do but keep working and earn money. i wish to bring my mum for traveling, i wish to own a pda phone, i wish i can wear variety of pretty clothes to work, i wish i can build up a good relationship wif all colleagues, i wish no company politics in my office, i wish our country is virus free( say NO to H1N1), i wish my life can spark up and not that dull at all. i wish to go US too......i wish to go KLIA to board on a plane, go everywhere i want to..i am dreaming obviously~~by the way, stil trying hard to get into my VM machine, attempt failure..does any1 know the solution without reformat everythin over again? i am so sick of reformating pc la wei....ish..

njoying my woring hour in office by blogging here

03.44pm hp tower,damansara
i am physiacally sitting in front of my pc typing, pretending that i am busy with my office work. but, i am mentally concentrating to my blog here. haha...what a fuuny worker i am in hp here. today went to office as usual, bumped into my colleagues while waitingfor the bus to come and fetch us. i was not daring to go infront
of them to chat. this is becasue she looked too fierce to me everytime i was trying to approach to her. when reach to the office,my id card could not scan through, therefore my senior asked me to go to security unit to ask for assistance. again here's the same probto me, he told me that the id card holder's name was not belong to me.i was like, huh? u serious? again wat should i obtain doesn't belong to me once again? it make me recall bek my dear tm technician has installed the worng regis name of the telephone at my home last time.so SWEAT!~but thanks to god, it settled within few mins and i get up to the office and start my work today. instead of saying my work, i would say start to day dreaming once again in office. so far there is no work for me to get involved, so i just keep sitting in front of the pc, browsing web and continue pretending to be a hardworking hp employee. i was having meeting at 10am this morning, mainly discuss about the definition of local domain, global group, universal group.and of coz, our trainer was LOO(same surname wif me. abit of warm feeling whenever i see him. might come from the same family.)hahaha..
okok, stop crapping. let me refresh, local domain - local user account within the local group. global group - e.g erricson account. its member servers are allowed to retrieve data from each other but must within its own account.universal group - combination of variety of global groups for differ accounts. there is some restrictions for the universal group by the way, it can only applied to native mode(windows 2003) while for the universal group which set up in windows 2000&03 can only applied to mixed mode. not sure is my explanation correct or not, but at least i sould still recall a little bit of wat i learned for today. haha...not to forget, i nit to re-clarify for my previous blog entry. in there i was saying hp is a place where we can relax and njoy ur life. but it isn't the way i was meant to! "if u manage to survive in hp working environment, you wil survive in every work field in
the future! " my senior advise to me again. =.= is that true btw? i need to work durin weekend ar, what do u think thn? 2 weeks continously..not sure the week after nxt week i will free from OT or not. sigh...

depressed ar...

i can't graduate on time la this time.. i couldn't find my name in list of graduates. its really depressing.. what i'm gonna do? go play? go for a wild outing? i hate myself so much.! wat the hell i've done to myself? why i push myself into this way? i jus wana b grad in the yr of 09. why why why? i scream:" ar....~~~!!!!" useless.. =.= 2 days of work in HP was ordinary. yet the colleagues i met so far they are frenly though. anythin make me feel uncomfortable in office? i bet NO. it is so relaxing working there. the environment such a good place for us to steal bone(malay term)..if you wish to spend ur life peacefully without any challenges, i would suggest u to step ur foot in here(only apply to my department la har) not to forget, the workers there are mostly the youngsters. so energetic when seeing them and work wif them together. but, here is the "but". they not as frenly as u expected though. jus like a wind pass by whenever u cross over them. haha...duno wat i wan to say actually. jus wan to highlight here, those who working in HP they are reallt expert in wat they are doin!(except me) =.='' coz i'm the newbie there? its jus a matter of time for me to find out my usability of contribution to this company for the nxt few months. gd luck to me and to HP as well. -sad me- :'(

--L.O.V.E--

it really teasing my heart. finally i know the real mean of LOVE..and need to say goodbye to it..here is my final word to u. i love you from the bottom of my heart, take care..bye

screwed my 2nd paper

the thing which i dun wan to happen the most was actually happened to me today durin exam! i was having stomach pain early in the exam, told myself to tahan,tahan and tahan til the end of the exam. but then in the middle of the way, i rushed out from the exam scene for the toilet. swt...inside the toilet, there was so many unexpected surprises which i nvr expected b4. my dear coursemates were actually 'studying' their notes which is being hidden in the toilet b4 exam. i was really =.='.. but no time for me to care such surprises. nit to do my business 1st..after went bek to exam, i duno how to do the questions!! those questions were too broad. i dun even know wat should i write for them. sigh..wasted my time in toilet and end up screwed up my paper. can't graduate on time liao la this time, jus bcoz of the milo and roti i ate b4 went to the exam!!!!!! i hate both of them so much.. i swear not to drink and eat them anymore!! i'm so so sad....

living in a desert

malacca-->a so call historical town in malaysia. i not really like to stay in here actually. it makes me feel the heat all the time especially when the summer season. the food here is definately not appetiting at all. y do i hate this place so much? i hav no idea, mayb bcoz of its so called famouss and delicious foods are totally opposite with their reputation. who grant them such a nice reputation huh? tasty chicken rice ball? yummy special wan tan mee?they all are tasteless and some are really hard to suit my appetite at all. haiz..been living here since 2005, the 1st wan tan mee i tried was in mmu corner, how come a dry wan tan mee will mixed up wif chili sos? this is so ugly 'special'..~! not my bowl of wan tan mee thou. ppl here are hard to communicate wif too..i stil remember i went to visit my fren's house durin alpha time. they all talked in hokkien while i was a dummy there jus keep smilling. when his grandma asked me sumthin in hokkien which i dun really understand with, i was like "...................". not til my fren told me wat his grandma was trying to tell me. ok,fine..hav to get used wif it no matter how. this is bcoz, most of my fren they all know it well therefore i hav to learn it well. "chio bu" the only word can pops up in my mind. haha...btw, i'm sweating while typing this blog lo. my promise to my dear frens, 2 yrs to go for our dream destination->maldives! go go go!!yeah!!

GoT tO beLiEve iN mAgiC~

last saturday was semblance night which organized by ITS of MMU Melaka. Its mostly dedicated to the final student who going to graduate soon and enough. most of my coursemates and friends were gathered there. 4 something under the hot & spicy sun, i went to town for makeup and hairset. it took me about 1 and a half hour to complete the process and then i was heading to the Rannaissance hotel. i met up with lily,janice and siang ying once i step into the hotel lobby. i was so excited to take picture with them as we have never hang out together like this before. everyone there were look familiar to me, someone that i recognize their faces but not so close with. someone nice to me but barely are my acquintances. all the girls were wearing gorgeously and amazingly stunning to each other. the night was full with entertainment show like magic show, fashion show and etc..i can't stop myself of keep taking photos with my friends. after the night we went to arena as my 1st time to go there. it was crowded, everybody were enjoying the music in there while someone is having fight at the other side of the club. few mins after, policeman were arrive to the scene and everyone was rushing out to the entrance. no one wish to get involved with such trouble right? therefore we have to stop our plan and turn to pure bar. what a lovely night~~

rush rush rush

everythin is on the rush. yet i dun hav the fear of the arriving date of fyp submission. why? i don't know..coming friday would be my bad day ever as i prepare nothing much for my works. sigh..assignments berlambak..how could i manage to clear all this out within 1 week time? i was rushing yesterday til forgot to get my room key out from my room. sms my roomate awkwardly jus wan to get the key from her. she walked all the way long frm lib bek to ixora to pass me the key. wat u think i was feeling tat time??awkward?happy?grateful? no way! i feel like i'm always the trouble maker! bring troubles to ppl all the time. sigh again.. and thn last nite went dinner wif frens, jus to discuss sum1's birthday celebration plan. v din act plan well as v hav no idea how to celeb for her. jus normal lo, go sing k, makan, n hav fun! haha...coming saturday is our big day-->semblance nite. bet every1 is ready wif their appearance on tat nite and ready to pay for any expanses jus to look great for the nite. haha..me either..hope every1 will b njoy the nite and hav fun all around wif our frens..gtg rush for my class lo..rush rush rush..!!tata..

crazy niteZzz..

last nite was cls event-mircos composing song nite. went there to support my fren. the songs they sang were really impressive. like it though. and today, i've been staying in my room for the whole daytime.and thn got class at 6pm so went for it and dined wif PS after class. v both walked to dhanyas to have our meal and i ordered another extra bubur manis after meal which cause my stomarch feels super uneasy. therefore i came out a crazy plan to her all of a sudden. i suggested to walk to jusco while v can digest our food in stomarch. tot my plan would be rejected but end up PS agreed wif me. haha..sumore she suggested to watch movie since v heading there. so, v bek to ep to get things prepared and started our nite jouney to MBO. v reached MBO exhaustedly and lastly din go for a movie. walked to jj and bought some junk foods there as well. v took a desert in jj too. ordered the cake in secret recipe and share it wif each other. after desert session and the shopping in jj super market, v walked bek to bkt.beruang once again. i nvr expect my nite would b spent by walking to jj but thn really thanks to PS coz at least it can ease my tension recently even though i'm stil havin my stress rite now. although tired yet i did njoy it. i like to do sumthin crazy n beyond the border, so come n challenge me wif any harsh challenges ba..! i'm ready for it! kaka...so tired..go nap awhile 1st. zhou tao!

talkie eyes wor..

bek hometown durin the mid term break. went to shopping wif mum in time square 1 day. the time v both busy for shopping, a promoter keep on saying my eyes look significantly attractive yet beautiful(bcoz my eyes are differ wif the normal people. =.=')~~ she said my eyes can speak to the people soundlessly although i'm not talking to them. am i tat 'geng'?can communicate people without havin a proper chat? haha..she keeps on saying til make my feel awkward. but i was so shioknya~ tats y captured this pic once i get home n try to evaluate her words. so frens, do i hav a talkie eyes?kaka..wu liao..

PuTErI gUnuNg L3dAnG tRiP

last sat morning went to gunung ledang wif dear and frens. v all departed about 7sumthin early in the morning(which v expect wil depart more earlier than this at 1st). it was a cloudy day all the way v drove to the tangak. v all pray inwardly so that god can grant us a sunny day b4 v start to hike. after 45mins drive, v finaly had reached to the destination. but too fast to b happy, bcoz another 2km to drive along the slipery mud road in order to get to the hillside. but it was fun to experiance such advanterous journey.haha...in the end v had reached to the office and regis ourselve b4 get up to the mountain. at 9.45am v headed to the path jus to conquer the ledang mountain. there were 13 of us in the team. v climbed thru the hill checkpoint by checkpoint. 2hours++ v had arrived til the half of the mountain which is our destination. up there v can simply njoy the natural fish spa and the refreshing water. we had had some fun up there wif each other as well. splashing the water,njoying the fish spa,filled up out stomarch wif the snacks that v bought the day b4..it was really fun!and thn another 2hours++ spent to get down. v reached ledang resort at evening time. wait for the turn to take bath 1 by 1 b4 went for the dinner. v all dinner at taman sagil and headed bek to the resort after this. hmm...quite boring as nothin much v gals can do in resort. therefore v plan to chit chat in the room to kill time while the guys were get into the swimming pool to play their water polo. haha..drank red wine n sparkling juice b4 went to sleep. its taste so so but i stil njoy it. woke up on the other day, went to eat wan tan mee 1st and then was goin to try the famous beef mee in tangak town. after the lunch v say gdbye to tangak n drove to muar to taste for another well-known food in muar--otak2 lo. v went to tanjung emas to see the river scenery in muar, n planned to take the boat ride to travel along the muar river. but so sad, some of our frens not really fond to this. there4, cancel the trip and start hunting for the yummy otak2 together lo..ended our trip at 5sumthin, and took dinner in pasar borong wif dear..hmm..this 2 days 1 nite trip was definately not enuf for me. i jus wan to go and spend more time wif dear for the travel. coz i like to travel especially wif dear. jus feel a little bit sry to his frens coz my frens not really join in the gang and always change in plan in the last min. i'm sry dear..btw, where's the next trip i gonna spend wif dear? i wan go oversea lo..dun care!!hahaha...forgot to let u guys to know 1 important thing durin our trip in ledang. bsides the beef mee is famous in there, i think the housefly is famous too..u can simply see them everywhere, anytime. especially in the shop v eat. so, people, check out the shop's kitchen b4 u decide to take ur meal there..

太委屈

你曾经说要保护我　只给我温柔没挫折
可是现在你总是对我回避　不再为我有心事而著急
太委屈　连分手也是让我最痛苦不能入眠
不哭泣　因为我对情对爱　全都不曾亏欠你
太委屈　还爱著你　你却狠心把我往外推
不能再这样下去　穿过爱的暴风雨
宁愿清醒忍痛地放弃你　也不在爱的梦中委屈自己

*my 2nd vAlenTinE's day*

hmm..can't think of anythin to share with but my valentine day wif dear. hehe.. on the day of 14th Feb, a well-known day in this global, its a special day for the couples to celeb and express their love to each other. those who in love, celeb for the longevity of their love. and to those who is stil single, it is the day for them to express and show their love to the loved one. before the come of 2008's valentine, i was to think that this day is not as special as wat i expect. yet, when the reach of 14-02-2008, i had totally changed my mind. it is a day for gals to recieve gifts, for them to get the best treatment frm their bf ever..ahahaha..is might sounds not true to some1 but at least it did applied on me. haha..for this yr valentine, dear has brought me to a reataurant called havana cafe. it was fully booked by all the couples tat nite(love is in the air everywhere, everytime and to everyone).kekeke...n thn dear was expectedly using his old strategy to leave d table and bring the flowers to me once again. (exactly same as last yr) but stil, i was shocked and touched by his deed. n this yr, he gave a cute yet trendy watch to me,with the colour i like. i am so happy for that..really get touched and went speechless the time i unwraped the gift. our dishes were amazing as well. they cut the hashbrown in a LOVE shape, and we was cheers with a glass of red wine too. v had had a nice chat under this so in-love restaurant together. after the meal v rushed for the movie. it was so hilarious. dear booked the thai movie 'ong bak' as our valentine day movie. at 1st i was a bit =.=, but i stil like it no matter wat. as long as can stay wif dear n hav a great moment together. the movie only last for 1hour++,less than 1 and a half hour i guess. thn v went to the ice house to eat ice kacang. v walked all the way long between DP and MP. it was fantastic..and memorable moment to me for sure. after the ice kacang, v decided to go back for a rest as v had no idea where to go after all. u know la, mlk is such a boring place to me. i really appreciate the moment v been together, although its jus a short while. but my mind will nvr get rid of those sweet moment,not until my mind has stop functioning..its a normal day to others, but its a special to me.

blogging some1's blog

i've been reading some of my ex-colleagues's blog lately. and i found out it is interesting to read her blog. with the proper and impressive language that she using in her blog, i feel like mine is nothing at all compare to hers. how i wish i could blog something funny, interesting as what she does. but due to my poor english level, i think its kinda hard for me to do so. i'm trying to make my blog as readable as possible,but don't think can reach the aim though. just as what i did for my fyp report for last sem. i still remember what the lecturer told me. he told me that my report was just average and did not satisfy his needs. i was so down and despaired. another thing i get impressed on my colleague is the gut she has. she dares to reveal her privacy to the public without hiding any. somemore she is genius in programming language. it makes me even more jealous on her. right now i'm in library,this is because i don't really want back to hostel and stay with my roomate. instead of saying she is bad to staying with,i will say that i don't dare to stay with her. especially we both in the room without talking with each other. i really hate that kind of feeling. by the way, i'm glad that dear has back from training and we are studying together for this last sem once again. but still, i'll be alone sometime which makes me feel sad. i would think of the non-sense once again. then end up have an arguement with dear. as what my colleague said, life’s interesting and mine is exciting, tiring, confusing… much to happen, much to see, much to experience, much to analyse, much to remember, much to sense, much to evaluate, much to write…its my life!..thanks to her advise..its enlighten me up!

12th day of CNY

today is the 12th day of CNY. had had a lou sang dinner with my bunch of frens last nite in bei zhan. it was great to spend my time wif them together. although in between there were sum unexpectated sadness happened to me. yet i managed to handle it simply. i'm really emo lately ever since the day i feel guilty towards sum1. haiz...jus went to meet wif my fyp supervisor, feeling nervous b4 meeting him. i scare of his shooting skill btw. tot of getting shoot when the meeting,but end up chatting nicely to me instead..make me even more worry abt my sys le,..stil thinking of goin bek kl later. should i go bek today or tomolo?indeed, i feel like wan to teman dear awhile more in mlk here. forget it, i jus feel like its been a long time i nvr blog anythin rite here. that is y i'm trying to get sumthin to say it here. hehe...anyway, hav a great day ahead every1..~ c ya..

fighting n struggling

morning paper has been screwed up by me once again. wore my contact lense and went for exam but turn up my eye get sored. =.= it keep giving me the warning signal that i've should not wear it today. question for the paper today was so so unpredictable. fill in the blank i could only managed to get 2 correct out of 5. .what the... mostly based on our own opinion and own judgement. really hate this kind of question. this is because, i hate to think n analyze the question. how nice if it is just a direct and straight to the point question..but seems my result for this sem will never helps to pull up my cgpa again. i feel so down all of a sudden. it has makes me no mood to cont with the paper tomolo. jus want to nag at myself for the mistakes i had done. 1 more sem for me to go in mmu. can't i just present the best of me within this few months time? after all it would be my brightful day ever.. haha...jkjk.. so boring~~~~~my housemates they all ady finished their paper. i'm the last who sit for the final. keep seeing they goin bek 1 by 1, such a bad feeling heading towards me. :( almost end of sem 2 in my delta yr, hopefully my day would come 1 day..i can achieve wat i dream for and every1 happy wif their own ending after this may(to my classmates).. all the best to us..god bless every1 who stay in this world.. PEACE..

another brand new day has come

finals are ongoing in the very 1st month of 2009,and 1 has down on yesterday. now another fight for TIT and TPA. have i get ready? the ans will always be NO! this is the study culture of MMU whereby students are tend to start their revision in the very last minute. thats y i am a typical student of MMU. haha... library is always fully booked in this peak season. very 'lak gu' til students have to wake up early in the morning and wait for it opens jus to get a seat in it. some even kind enuf to reserve the seats for their frens. study together, make noise together and lol together. library security guards are just to continue their job without stoping students from making niose. an ideal security guard with full responsible. =.= i wonder how is the library in other campus look like, wil they allow student to chit chat in it but not to study quietly? MMU library is just like a pasar siang dan malam. noises are everywhere, everytime. u can't avoid from it no matter which corner u hide in library. btw, few more days to go for my trimester break + CNY holiday. ask me how am i goin to fully utilize it? good question, the regular ans would be ->FYP! have to bear wif it til graduate on this coming august. am i manage to pass thru it? based on wat i have screwed up in my fyp 1st phase, i have no longer provide any confidence level to myself. this is because i am really zha and lazy. what to do? keep on going lo as the thing wil stil happen no matter how. the thing i can only do is to duplicate my sighness, despairness. sigh..~